My seatbelt, a couple of airbags and just pure luck that the deer picked that particular part of the road to run into, saved my life. I would be dead if those 3 things didn’t happen. It’s weird to experience such an intense crash and then it’s back to normal life. The aftermath. Rental only for so long. Get a new car. Get your shit together. Fuck man. Adulting is bullshit. I wasted $900 in February on that damn car. For the love.
The pain is hurting more the day after. But I’m good. Lucky. I of course went through the extreme gauntlet of emotions. Crying, laughing, rambling, rambling, crying, laughing, anger, crying, guilt, burden, blah blah. Everyone was nice. Made it so much easier. I hit the deer. The tree. Then car tipped over on the drivers side. Whew. So surreal. Another story in the awkward quilt of my existence, bucket list item checked. Not really but I’ve been thinking about possibly hitting a deer for six months. Man I still feel weird.
You know who I thank? I thank the nice people. I thank the seatbelt. I thank the working airbags. I thank the workers who made that car correctly. I thank the deer for at least picking a great spot to crash. Dodged the many ditches, homes, electric poles, brick walls, that are along there as well. No one in the sky helped me. But maybe I’m wrong. But come on, that book was written by rich, white men, it’s a story of one of the many who were persecuted, tortured, beaten, etc. Anyways, if there is a heaven and a hell, I hope I go to the cooler one, whichever that may be.
I’m in the 9th circle of hell. Oh wait, never mind, I’m in a medical supply shop. Wow. I wish I was in hell. And I completely understand why it’s hell. Big pharma. USA healthcare system. #PROLIFE* ** *unborn only ** no preventative care. Just bandaids. But for the record, the people there were nice. They just have to deal with shit. My doctor had to request a pre authorization, but since my apnea is beyond severe, well over the threshold, it was approved. I thought maybe it had improved over the last decade, and I did lose weight in past year but alas still very severe. I actually experienced shortness of breath some mornings. Eeeksh.
Group text submission- Happy Easter! 🙌❤️ God is good!
My initial reaction? Barf 🤮 🤮🤮
At this point it feels offensive to say shit like that when kids are dying from easily preventable deaths everyday in #PROLIFE AMERICA! I didn't even know it was Easter until someone pointed it out. I wish he would resurrect so I could grill him for how stupid this whole plan was. Clinic staff told me to have a Happy Easter on March 29th. I had a brief moment of confusion. Oh right. There were paper bunnies strewn across the ceiling and pictures of eggs and rabbits. Cracked me up. The last time I remember celebrating Easter was when a bunch of drinks were hidden, PG-R, and we all searched for our six packs.
I am 99.9999% on the side of Jesus has shit all to do with any of this bullshit at all. And does nothing to help any of it either. He was a guy back in the day that was nailed to a cross just like hundreds others that pissed off the rich people in charge. Then rich men decided to write a book to control people with. 🤮🤮🤮
Grinding. Teeth grinding. Apparently I do it. I keep forgetting to buy a mouthguard. I notice I do it a lot during the day. When it’s happening, and I finally realize it, I try to ground myself. Be in the present. Why are you grinding your teeth? I made an absolute jackass out of myself with some work colleagues recently. I’m in totally shock of how insane I must have looked. I said all the wrong things (as usual) and in all the wrong ways. I was being laughed at for questions I seriously couldn’t figure out why they were funny. Not mean laughing. I looked like a clueless idiot about certain rules. Of course I know the rules, I was just hoping exceptions could be made due to our location and the struggle the Medicaid clients have to get there. I was basically hugging a wall. Accidentally insulting people. I felt confused too. I just feel like I’m losing it. But it’s fine. Been here before. Just gets fucking old. I wish I could control more. Need to practice.
I think the SNL version is my favorite version of the What Was I Made For song by Billie Eilish, and I love how some of the gang joins the episode. That episode was epic, Kate McKinnon was the host and Maya Rudolph and Kristen Wiig join in too. This song makes me weep. I immediately listen to this song when I want to weep. Journal for Jordan does it too. This video too.
It’s so hard to watch that song. I read a biography of Chris Farley and they talked about how their friends ended up dying, so they didn’t want him to take the same road. Just breaks my heart. I see it so much. Addiction. It is not “take a nap, get over it”. Let’s show a video that gives me the opposite feeling
Slays me. Epic Episode.
Just watch it. It is worth it. The ending with all the intense staring, you’re gonna love it. Watching all of these just reminds me of how awesome Kate McKinnon’s opening monologue is. Talk shit on SNL all you want. Tom Hanks said it best in one of the COVID episodes, sometimes sketches aren’t great. There are so fucking many sketches, so many episodes, so many seasons. Give them a break, you try to write hilarious shit constantly. This is one of the best monologues for sure. Chris Hemsworth had another amazing opening monologue. But definitely watch the Kate McKinnon one, just do it.
Man. I will watch these videos a billion more times. “I’m Just Ken” it will be quadrillion times. Weren’t those videos great? I understand if you didn’t watch, it’s a lot. But I cannot stop laughing. Wow my body really hurts now. I think the adrenaline is all gone now. The insane gauntlet of emotions has mellowed as well. 4:38 left on my lasagna. My cat is sitting across my arms as I am trying to type. Good god, he always knows. I will probably beg him to snuggle later and he’ll just slowly blink and turn away. Man, I definitely overshared with the EMT. I also definitely passed out for a minute. I thought I hadn’t but I totally did. Wow the pain just kind of hit. ooof. I think I overshared with the whole damn street and the hoards of people. Quite a spectacle trying to get me out of the car and then walking in the street then shaking, crying, laughing, chattering, anger, but that is the usual, just supercharged.
I have a big old truck as a rental, all they had, and I think it will be good to feel more protected, especially when it’s dark and raining again. Ooof, I wonder if I’ll have some trouble on that road again or when it’s dark and raining. Lasagna is ready.
“Self-made”. If we actually reviewed the billionaires and millionaires, a vast majority are no where near “self-made”. It’s not just inherited businesses and money. Resources, money, loans, business connections, family connections, political connections, nice upbringing, basic needs met, education, healthcare, banking connections. “building a business” from capital, recognition, gained from fame is also not self-made. You’re not self-made. If someone calls Kylie Jenner a self made billionaire one more time… I wish Forbes would stop the lies too. total bullshit. It was embarrassing to even see the cover of that magazine. Painful. It’s painful to see actors rambling about the fucking royal king game. It’s getting fucking old. Sellouts. I hate seeing rich actors in commercials for mediocre products that use small print to extort the working class. Ugh. Plus they are taking work from commercial actors. Super greedy.
Biden wants to cancel student debt. Damn right. People that get all pissy should think about reducing college costs for social work majors. I pay the same tuition and get paid 50x less. Or more. CEO is like what 400x? Maybe my tuition should have been 50x less. Plus my legacy scholarships and dad didn’t pay for my education. I wonder how many of the old farts in congress were “self-made” and had student loans? Maybe I should join the military and get shot at so I can become a social worker at a reasonable cost. Our defense budget is the highest it’s ever been around 1.5trillion. But yeah those greedy college students paying their own way for tuition that is no where near affordable are the problem.
More and more articles about Christians screaming about Trump and fetuses. I’m so glad these Christian’s are pro-life and work to eradicate poverty and homelessness. If each church provided housing to 2 homeless, or just help them get off their damn feet like ACTUALLY HELP, homelessness would not exist in the USA. And then how many people are in each church? Like sweet baby Jesus where do these tithes go?! And yes, I know people do help. Yes, I get that. If I even dare say the churches as a fucking community could do more I get the usual speeches about their volunteer work. Defensive speeches about how they are “self-made” and honor the sanctity of life. It’s always with an asterisk. **except these people. Except this class. Except this gender, blah blah blah. But yes of course every person I’ve ever talked to ever isn’t like that and does volunteer work. And always votes to help those people.
A couple food cards and a number to call is not helpful when cost of living is skyrocketing and working class people are a step away from being homeless themselves. Cuz I’m actually working in the thick of it. How many members of the religious community are working in it. And I know many are. But it’s frustrating when the loud, privileged, well off ones keep screaming and getting press coverage who don’t know shit about the social problems in this fucking world.
I’m also extremely glad that the Christian community is providing care and resources to the the hundreds of thousands of new babies being more every year due to their prolife* policies. GOD GOVERNMENT AND GUNS! YEEHAW
I would also like to add that all religions, all denominations and all places of worship can be part of this. I’m not simply dissing Christianity but they have loud anti-life voices so yeah. They get the coverage.
*unborn only
Sorry not sorry but all pedophiles, child rapists, sex traffickers all deserve painful deaths. I’m not talking the guy who flashes people or the Romeo and Juliet bullshit. I’m talking sick fucks. I vote for a hunger games island. Toss them all in. Think of the millions we’d save the economy. Millions that money grubbing, rich private prison profiteers wouldn’t get. We can stream if we want. Available for free nationwide.