AAAAAAAHH!

When kids die from preventable causes it’s old news, when a CEO dies it’s because “we are becoming more open minded to political violence” and it’s very “troubling”.

It has been a long time since my last entry. I am diagnosed with Bipolar I and Borderline Personality Disorder. I am apparently a unicorn in this sense because my childhood was fantastic. My whole family kinda of grew up together in a sense with our mental health, because each family member does struggle with it. My parents were young and working class but provided me with an amazing childhood and I’m proud to say we are still very close. When I went into social work, it was also a great opportunity to share knowledge and have respectful, lively debates. I’m lucky, I’m privileged, because my parents hate the moldy orange more than me. My parents and I have struggled with what has happened. When I was bullied, my parents gave me comebacks and never punished me when I was sticking up to myself. Finish fights, don’t start them. Anyways, the whole point of this first paragraph was to warn any potential reader that I struggle with linear blogging. I usually go on tangents, another topic will inspire me so then I shift and it all ends up just being an insane, rage-filled rant. But hey, it can help me sometimes. Probably best to give up now.  

To say I am upset about what is going on in this country is an understatement. While it is so believable that this is happening, it is still absolutely shocking. Every time I see the news it appears that the bloated yam has hired a new rapist, with zero experience, to a top government position. I’m chronically thirsty and feel empty due to how much I vomit on a daily basis just handling the fact that this is the USA in 2024. I just watched “The Daily Show” episode where Laverne Cox tells us about the research and how the highest rates of trans porn is viewed in red states. Interesting. Our country is OBSESSED with genitals and bathrooms. The way Walz and his son have been drug through the mud is absolutely disgusting. TO see a child cry because they are so proud of their dad, just made me want to cry. I’m a huge weeper though, I weep all the fucking time. Constantly. I have a lot of frustrating things happening right now including worrying if my job will exist in 2025.

Middle aged white man have highest rates of completed suicides. I think the reason is because they watch Fox News and are taught how to be a “real man” and they just shove everything else down. Because if we address mental health, we are weak. Also, thoughts and prayers to the millions of boys who have had to see tampons in schools. What a horrifying experience for them. My dad and brother actually participate in weekly therapy sessions just to deal with living with 3 women for years who had periods. They both are still unable to open a bathroom cabinet for fear of seeing a cotton tampon, it haunts their dreams. All their toiletries are just tossed casually on the sink counter, it’s madness. Please wish them a swift recovery.

I want to give a shout out to one of my heroes and one of my favorite people- Jessica Valenti. Congratulations on the book and it is amazing, factual and necessary. Check out her blog, Abortion, Everyday. In this country, women are second class citizens. Doesn’t matter what we do, we never win, we are never good enough, or “woman” enough or “strong” enough. Someone in Kansas told me her daughter’s coach sent an email saying “periods are no excuses for missing sports practices” and basically called them crybabies. OH RIGHT, I forgot the male experience of periods. If I was a mother, and I received that letter, you bet your fucking ass I’m storming up to that fucking school. I’ve never met a woman who used her period as an excuse for anything. Never. Any time that was actually addressed, it was completely acceptable. In high school, I had cramps so bad, I remember two people helping me walk because my vision was blurry and I felt like I was having an out of body experience due to the pain. If I was a boy, not only would I have not even gone to school that day, I’d be crying and whining about it all day. Women are the strongest sex. We can handle our shit. If men got periods, the entire fucking country would shut down every month to handle the syncing of the snowflake men. Please stop asking about getting kicked in the nuts vs. childbirth. It’s fucking offensive.

This brings me to “your body, my choice”. When you hear a “man” say that, just know, they are scum. Done. Move on. I will not associate with anyone that says that shit. If you are a father, a brother, a uncle, a cousin, a friend of a woman and say that shit, you are an absolute disgrace. You should be ashamed of yourself. Oh, and go fuck yourself! Don’t give a fuck how old you are! I just love it when people who lack the equipment to even grow a fetus, defend the fetus so fiercely yet treat the women like trash. I’m sure that woman and her new baby will be treated so kindly if she chooses to keep the fetal tissue and let it grow and grow. I’d love to see men’s bodies get monitored and ask how they feel. I also would love to know how many boys that say this sick shit have thought about the consequences of sex before needling poor women into mediocre, selfish, jackrabbiting excuses for having sex. I’m sure you guys all talk about birth control, protection, consent and consequences before you have intercourse with someone that can grow a fetus inside them.

Let me reference this post which give’s “ProLife” “men” their options for sexual relations.

When you watch the onslaught of Fox News shows that talk about “real men” don’t vote for women, vote liberal, vote democrat. I loved Obama’s lecture about that. It’s just embarrassing to watch them whine about tampons and bathrooms and genitals and women. Kamala must be perfect but everything Trump says gets excused. It’s rigged if anyone other than the moldy orange wins. I am worried Desi Lydic is going to lose it. I’m right there with ya gurl. To be a fly on the wall in the Obama house when Trump won.

When they were talking about Kamala’s race too. They did with Obama too of course. The supreme white queen Coulter I remembered talking about the “black experience” in America. Since, Obama did this and that he did not experience it. The Fox News men babbling about Kamala’s race and if she is “really black”. I mean, it is fucking astounding. Just casually ranting and raving about other people’s ethnicities. Acting like they are the authority on what you may call yourself. And then, on top of that, can only be one, and also have the proper “experience” to be one. Having two different ethnicities just explodes their brains, just can’t seem to handle. Just blows my fucking mind.

Sometimes I feel so many different emotions at different times and can’t seem to figure out how I truly feel about something. Today it is A, tomorrow it is B. Then later that night it’s C, then back to A the following day. Couple days of peace, then shoot on up to a whole new way to feel about the same damn thing- D! Then let’s get some more B in there. Sometimes feel like a helpless moron. I know, boo hoo.

Wow. I keep seeing articles about Harris and her campaign spending. It's truly mind blowing that these fucks can bitch and moan about the Harris political funding why so blatantly supporting Trump's political contributions. Jesus fucking christ. It makes me sick thinking about the millions and millions, apparently billions, of dollars spent on politics and campaigning. Imagine if our country was actually "prolife" and invested billions in education and healthcare. If we followed the science of economics, education would be the #1 thing we invest in. Now maybe the private schools get some cash, but our country graduates kids who can't read. Our country still has segregated proms in the south. Kids are dying from lack of healthcare, no healthcare, living in poverty and being homeless. Guns are also #1 cause of death for kids. PFFFTT who cares though right? They are humans with FULLBLOWN cardiac activity but they're just kids. PFFTTT. Not like they are fetuses.

The Daily Show is one of the best shows ever. Truly one of the few sources that I trust. Jon Stewart is a hero. Michael Kosta, Ronnie Chieng, Desi Lydic and Jordan Klepper are just blowing my mind at how amazing they are. The newbies slay me too. David Hogg, another hero, going to change the world with the work he does to fight gun violence. Oddly enough, he cares about kids with FULLBLOWN cardiac activity and cares about the FACT that guns are the #1 killer of kids. PFFTTT kids gotta die of something right? Maybe lack of free food, health insurance won't cut it, so need a gun to get em! 

I heard on npr that we are “becoming more open minded about political violence” and it’s troubling.

Well it’s troubling to me that KIDS die daily from preventable things like guns, abuse, neglect, poverty, lack of adequate health insurnace, or no insurance at all, suicide… but hey we are WAY OPENMINDED about all of that! WOO HOO!

Guns- #1 killer of american kids

USA- 1. HIGHEST maternal mortality rate in developed world

2. Highest gun death rate in developed world (have more toddlers becoming accidental murderers annually than some countries have entire gun death totals 1+years, Japan even 10 years). Remember its RATES too not just totals

3. Cops kill the most people yet we have weakest police training in developed world, perhaps even the globe. Countries we consider “less than” have better rates for all kinds of things like maternity leave, total guns (we have more than people and over 375 million more than 2nd place country) , healthcare, education

4. We have kids going hungry in schools and graduating without the ability to read.

5. 31st out of 204 countries in suicide death rates. Statistics more difficult to find for developed world but we aren’t the “highest” however numbers are skewed because still not appropriately researched due to stigma

6. Only country that has medical bankruptcy

7. Child abuse rates steady since 2005. I wonder if there is ANY OTHER WAY to tackle this? I wonder if it has anything to do with our national budget which has tiny slivers for helping people and massive slices for death, war, murder, destruction, corporate bailouts, corporate welfare, wall street, tax cuts and loopholes and benefits for the RICH (the ONLY job creators so they DESERVE to make 400x more than the “lowly “unskilled” workers”, and DESERVE to make double-digit millions while the working class die due to inadequate insurance, poverty, expensive medications, and unmanaged physical and mental disabilities (don’t even get me started on the “moocher” argument).

8. 1/9 executions is of an innocent person.

9. We have 25% of entire global prison population yet only 4% of the globe. We hog 1/4 of world’s resources and produce 1/3 of the waste. LAND OF THE FREE INDEED. Don’t get me started on cash bail, overworked and underpaid court appointed defense attorneys, racism, sexism in prison and “justice” system.

10. We value fetal tissues more than fully alive children who also have FULL BLOWN CARDIAC ACTIVITY!

11. Every 16 hours a woman is SHOT by a current or former partner

12. Everyday 8 children are shot due to accidental family fire. Don’t get me started on the whining of responsible gun owners, they always think it’s about them!! It’s not. calm the fuck down.

13. We elected a rapist AGAIN. Put a rapist on Supreme court. Just a whole new justice system for these monsters.

But the real tragedy is being open minded about political violence… jesus christ

USA! USA!

If you DO NOT have your BASIC needs met (it is a PRIVILEGE to have them all met) how the hell are people supposed to address anything else in their fucking lives?

The privileged and uninformed always have the “we’ll get a job”, “hey this guy was homeless and now he is a millionaire”, “pull yourself up”, “works for me so should work for you”. Dear god my entire career and life I have spent trying to inform, educate, advocate. So many are unwilling to listen, out of touch, and just have no possible sense of this reality. The whole “it takes a village” and “walk a mile” why the fuck don’t we practice that?

https://www.govtrack.us/misconduct